super-epic mega disappointment

Hey, remember that really huge and much needed opportunity that I was all kinds of excited about? Well, my dream of having a studio/retail space at Artist's Row in downtown Salem is 98% smushed. I applied and was not awarded a unit.

I can't say I'm not bitter. I'm totally upset that I did not get the spot. I was told that the reason I didn't get it was because I was applying by myself and the panel deemed the responsibility of having the space too much for one person. There were four units up for grabs and all four units went to the same four groups that had them last year. That is hard to swallow. I know I could have done an excellent job running the space and I'm frustrated that I was even given hope to apply if they disfavored solo operations and gave preference to returning artists.

I've been moping around for a couple of days since I got the news. I'm trying hard to figure out a new plan but I just keep mourning the loss of this perfect opportunity. The way I'm feeling is akin to being rejected from your first choice college and not having a second choice.

I have butterflies and big big plans!

I can hardly contain myself. The good solid advice of "Don't get your hopes up too much" has been ignored and my whole heart is excited about the possibility that I will have a studio and retail space in downtown Salem! Like, in a couple months! Maybe!

I went on a site visit today to check out prospective spaces in the cluster of little buildings known as "Artist's Row" and I have to admit that setting foot in the studios had an intoxicating effect on my already weak rational side. I know that there are other artists applying for this program and that there are only four spots available but I WANT THIS SO MUCH that I am ignoring reasonable doubt in favor of twirly dancing.

The photos above are of my favorite unit out of the available four. It's currently storing all kinds of stuff and needs a major facelift but if it becomes mine, I'll make it a real stunner!