I found a few of my favorite pictures of myself as a kid to show my friends at work what a mini electric style icon I was before 1990. As I looked at the pictures, I tried really hard to remember what kind of person I was when I was a kid. I was also trying to guess what little Elise would think of me now.
As far as I can remember, I was a bubbly kid who was always eager to show off a little. My Great Uncle Chet was my favorite audience for my songs, dances and artwork displays. I had a massive collection of stuffed animals that I would take great pride in arranging. I cared a lot about animals and was a righteous scolder of litterbugs. My favorite food was raisin nut bran and I loved my dog a ton. I named her Sunshine. I also loved going to church and felt like I had a close relationship with God. I was also classically boy crazy. I think I wanted to grow up to save animals, be a famous fashion designer, artist and sing like Debbie Gibson. I was opinionated and competitive but also a worrier who cared about the whole world and wanted to save everything. I wanted a canopy bed even more.
I realize not a whole lot has changed. Debbie Gibson and God are no longer my heroes but my personality seems pretty similar. It seems I've turned out pretty predictably. I think little Elise would be a little disappointed that I'm not famous yet and that I still have zits but she would definitely be all about my house bunnies. She would wonder why I haven't devoted my life to fighting war, poverty and animal abuse. She would think I dress boring. I think she would totally approve of my husband selection and that I'm trying to be an artist though.
I'm remembering how much I enjoyed doing crafty things like BeDazzling my jeans and polishing stones in my rock tumbler. I was always making a big crafty mess and inventing songs and games.
When I see it this way, my life feels like it makes more sense and has been following a natural progression even though I feel like so much has changed. I guess that is comforting in a way.