Saturday, January 17, 2009

Feeling a little bit blue


I've heard that this week is proven to be the most depressing week of the year and I admit that I am feeling it's true for me. I wouldn't say I feel depressed but I am experiencing a general dullness paired with a bit of disappointment in myself.

Every morning I make my tea and sit on the couch to write out my list of plans and goals for the day. I love this morning ritual but lately I have paired it with an evening ritual of looking at the list for the day, seeing how little I have accomplished and going to bed feeling like I'm failing. I think I set myself up for this by having unrealistic ideas about how much I could achieve once I was full time on Argyle Whale. It's probably amusing that I thought that my day job was the only thing keeping me from creating every day, making home cooked meals, having a spotless home and being a better friend and a sharp dresser!

I bet I'm not the only crafty entrepreneur who left her job and found out that there were still only 24 hours in a day.

Tomorrow I'm making a smaller list.

9 comments:

Liz (made in lowell) said...

You are SO not the only one! I think the day goes even faster now that I do this full time. But give it some adjustment room, it took me an (embarassingly) long time to get into a rhythm. And maybe you aren't counting some of your accomplishments, like coming up with new ideas. ((Mid-January hugs))

Lara said...

Cheer up! I think you're doing great. Just remember: Nothing worth having comes easy.

hellojenuine said...

oh, i feel you, & i'm not even creating full time! i'm constantly kicking (mentally speaking) myself for all the little things i'm not getting done. but i'm glad you know that this is just temporary blues, & that you're being realistic. you're most definitely not failing!

Kitty Vane said...

You are not alone. I've been struggling to find my rhythm for a while now, and I've learned that moving into crafting full time isn't as easy as it would seem.
I hope your funk will lift and you'll find the motivation & time to live the life you want.

Shona~ LALA dex press said...

My Sat/ Sunday lists are huge, the I blink + it's 5:00pm and I wonder where the day went + gwt bummed about not completing my list.

Here is what I have started to do...look at what I did complete (comment #1 by Liz offers the same advice).

Cicada Studio said...

I too have been feeling that my grand plans were perhaps a bit too adventurous- already I'm coming up with new plans that might knock the original off the list... but I still plan, dream, hope and do what I can. Just keep at it. There will be better days (and some worse ones too) Just gotta keep following your dream.

Jessica said...

Hey, I admire you for at least attempting to MAKE a list of daily goals. I don't do that for the fear of failure, too. Because I just never have enough time for anything that NEEDS to be done. Everything I do in my free time is to try and relax and unwind form the daily grind.

Being an adult kind of sucks sometimes, doesn't it.

blackberrycrafts said...

It's probably amusing that I thought that my day job was the only thing keeping me from creating every day, making home cooked meals, having a spotless home and being a better friend and a sharp dresser!

This made me smile; echoes my own daily thoughts exactly as I'm sitting at my desk, still a secretary. I suppose the grass in greener adage is sometimes true.

I've found that what sometimes helps me is instead of writing everything that needs to be done, just writing the things that you can realistically achieve - then you finish the day on a good note, and feel more positive!

Kayleigh said...

i see you use a gocco a lot, i am thinking of investing but you cant get them in the uk, is it hard to get all the inks etc? and also once you have burnt an image on the screen can you re-use it? i think your illustrations are great. and your bunnys, so cute. thanks